You Raise Me Up (Idol Gives Back)

Sudorku Puzzle

I'm not really a fan of sudoku puzzles..but i just saw this from a Foxtrot fan website. Just click on the image so that you can solve the puzzle even better. Hehe. Enjoy! =)

If you want to see the solution, click here. (Thanks to another website..hehe)

while fixing my things

never expected to find a copy of this poem just hiding beneath a pile of handouts.

Be patient
Try to love the questions.
Do not seek the answers
which cannot be given:
You would not be able to live them.
Live everything.
Live the questions now;
You will then gradually
without noticing it
Live into the answers
some distant day.

(Rainier Maria Rilke)

My Other Blog

I have another blog: it's http://therubymoonstone.blogspot.com. You can check it out. :) Hope I can maintain it though. Palagay ko madalas lang akong mag-update ng blogs dahil wala pa masyadong ginagawa. Let's wait 'til my driving lessons and job application(s) come in.

And also, i just lost my cellphone. please send me a message in my friendster or YM account (keena09@yahoo.com) so that i could give you my new# :)

reading

after coming to educ's graduation ceremony (probably my last educ choir activity for the summer) and sleeping, i just kept on reading and surfing the internet. haha..i also come across with this article if you guys are interested in this. for those who are extremely vain and want to look good while working, it might help..hehe. =)

having nothing to do (that is not looking for part-time work yet)..i prepared a list of books to read for the summer. i bought those books during the second semester..and even borrowed one from Mel (one of my closest friends in ictus) but i haven't started reading them. well.. i just read a few chapters but i wasn't very consistent because..i don't know why but i got easily tired last sem, so i preferred sleeping. or i just read (or reread) comics and graphic novels (Sandman!) instead. oh well..there's plenty of time this summer anyway. =)

i'm so excited to watch the simpsons movie! given that i'm a simpsons addict..and i don't get tired of watching the episodes. i just saw the third trailer! heehee =) can't wait to see them, especially homer! =)

funny video

just got home from educ and ictus choir practice. hehe =) i had nothing to do so i went to youtube and typed "funny videos" on the search engine. this is the second video that appeared on the list.



it's so cool. they're so synchronized. and it's funny how the guy keeps on singing the lyrics while dancing on the trendmills. and it's so fun to do!! hmm..now i have one motivation to start going to the gym..haha! =)

Bridge to Terabithia

After going to educ's baccalaureate mass, i tried visiting bro bros (miss ko na siya eh) but he's not there in Loyola House! Oh well. So I just went home and watched the Bridge to Terabithia. Here's the trailer:

I guess I'm expecting that the story would be about this new world Jesse and Leslie (the major characters of the movie) are creating. That there would be trouble in Terabithia and they have do something to save "their kingdom"..that is after watching that trailer. But in the movie, they just keep on creating new things that is far from reality. Although the mythical creatures (i.e. dragonfly warriors, dark master, giant troll, etc) makes the movie more interesting, but the kids just spontaneously use their imagination. They imagine Terabithia and then go back to reality. And that's it. Then again, the special effects are really good anyway =) But the best part of the movie is how it ended. The ending may be a bit heavy for a kiddy movie. But I didn't find it too tragic..maybe it just proves that the best way for you to become stronger is to experience to lose something you've always have..or you think you will always have. Argh! I can't put it into words. Okay here it goes: That losing something or someone must not stop you from living or in the movie, imagining one's life and make it more beautiful.

"You have to believe it and you hate it. I don't have to believe it and I think it's beautiful."

Haha. Time to go back to educ. I still have another practice at 4pm for the invocation of the graduation tomorrow. After all of this, I'll start looking for work.

changing

I need to find something to do for the summer. It scares me how I have too much free time..I become very reflective..too reflective that I begin thinking about lots of things..and it's not very healthy. I'll just finish participating for the baccalaureate mass for educ tomorrow (I just started joining their practices last Monday), and start polishing my resume. I'll fix my room and all of my handouts during the weekend. Then I'll go look for a part-time job next week. If nothing happens, I'll finally apply as a volunteer storyteller for Adarna House. At least I'll start doing something else..although earning money would be really better nowadays.

It's been awhile since I last prayed seriously. Because of the acad load and org activities for the past months, praying has been on the rocks for me. Yeah. It's not an excuse but..it's all I can think of. Probably, I don't give enough time. I keep on telling Him about what's been happening..and the most important thing I forget to do is listen to Him and know who He truly is, as what I've realized in my SD sessions with Bro. Bros. (Haha..it has also been three months since my last session). But during the middle of the schoolyear, I start listening to what He's telling me.
I remembered my professor, Sir Aureaus, telling us that we need "aesthetic distance" so that we would not read too much what we all ready see. But then he added, not to make that distance too long because the inspiration may fade away. Ah. Now I remembered why I wasn't as consistent in praying as before. I've been trying too hard. And as I mentioned in my last entry, "That when you struggle even more, things can get worst."

So I went out instead. And I appreciated even more what is around me..at home, in school, in ictus, csc choir, upsec, everywhere. Even though some moments make you want to fall apart, I still have faith as almost everyone around me have.

But now is the best time to talk to Him again. I just did. It made me have a different view of the things or changes happening now. It really depends how we adapt to these changes..if you're willing to make new things along with that change...to fight or to allow these changes to lose the good things that you already have.

Although I know we can't have everything. But..I guess I prefer fighting and getting hurt in the end than regretting something I should have done.

Random Thoughts

I guess this is what you get when you try too hard. Sometimes, I wouldn’t really know if the one that I’ve been working hard for would do me (and other people) any good or would only bring more harm. That when you struggle even more, things can get worst.

Argh! I’m being dramatic again. That’s why I’m so glad I saw Tin (my orgmate in ictus) after her law interview. I really enjoyed my afternoon because of her. =) And this Friday, I’ll be seeing Angel, one of my closest friends in the org. Haha..I just realized that we have a picture together.

That was taken last October. We went to Sta. Lucia to visit Ryan and Angel’s ice cream store/stall. And I have to treat Angel this Friday as a post-celebration of her birthday. Last year, we watched “Meet the Fockers” then ate in Burgoos. It was so funny cause in the movie, Dustin Hoffman kept on saying about eating chimichanga, which is also the free appetizer served in Burgoos. I guess we took it as a sign. =) So I’m so psyched where we would go next.

I’m still waiting for the official approval from the university registrar to substitute my Math courses to GE. As always, the registrar is thrilled to keep students waiting for their announcements. And to think that the last day of registration for the summer is tomorrow! So I must know asap if I need to enroll for two MST subjects or not. Although Tin told me not to worry since it’s already approved by the Math dept and Educ, I just want to be sure everything would be okay before I (hopefully) graduate next sem. I don’t want to be delayed even more because of that.

What I want to do this summer:

1. Find summer tutorial work..I still don’t know where. I need to ask help from LA and Maite about it.
2. Enroll in a driving school along katipunan
3. Read, read, and read about teaching children with autism or mental retardation..just to prepare for my practicum

I really want to make the most out of the time I have, especially this summer. After practicum, my mama wants me to go to the States until December. Wow. At first I was hesitant to go. I don’t know why. Maybe I want to work right away when given the opportunity. But then again, my sister told me I need a break from all the acads and org activities that I had. So, I’ll stay there until my birthday. Turning 22. Wow. I can’t believe it. But it would be interesting to celebrate my birthday in a different place and with my relatives in the States. Something new for a change. Ever since last school year started, I’ve been trying to do some things I’ve never done before. Yeah. I still get scared..most of the time really. But, what the heck. I have nothing to lose so might as well do it. =)

My last entry, Silence, is for my grandmother who passed away that time. And a lot of us were overwhelmed by it, for so many reasons. Please kindly pray for her and her family as well. =)

Silence

That's all I can say.

end of panic episodes..for now

I just saw my grades for my creative writing (CW 140) and comparative lit (CL 121)class! =) Pumasa ako! I can't believe it! Especially in my CL 121 class! Haha..I even asked my prof before if he's still going to give a final exam. He told us that we should have a comprehensive exam for finals..based on the results of our first exam..huhu. But he just told me with a smile, "No. No. You don't have to worry about it anymore." HWAT! I wanted to tell him if he had noticed my standing is not so good..plus I'm graduating next sem and I don't want to be delayed even more because of that. But apparently, I still made it. Yehey!=) Hehe..But no matter how difficult his subject was for me, I still enjoyed his class discussions. And now I like him even more..kasi pumasa ako! Haha! =) Finally! Tuloy na talaga ang 13 units ko next sem!! =)

Those are the two subjects that I've been worrying about this semester. I don't know. I guess I'm not used with that kind of classroom set-up..Mommy Jo even told me, "Ayan. Ma-aapreciate mo na lalo ang mga pinag-aaralan natin sa SpEd." Which is absolutely true. I'm more eager to read more and study (yes. study!) for SpEd during the sem. though CW 140 and CL 121 really gives good training to me but...let's just say that there are some things not meant for me. It's the kind of subject I won't be studying for the rest of my life. Their interesting but..I'll leave them to the language majors. =)

LA and I are going to find work next friday. Woohoo! =) Although she's already offering me another tutorial job starting next schoolyear. But it's every Monday to Thursday, 5:00pm-6:00pm..exactly after my practicum so I don't know if I would accept the job. And it's in Marikina. If I would be taking my practicum in Bridges School (near Tomas Morato or Quezon Ave..not sure), I won't make it on time. Hay. I'll just continue looking for another part time job.

from the Official Peanuts Website: http://www.snoopy.com

Moe Szyslak

Obviously, I have nothing else to do but update my blog. And I can't sleep! I must get use to this kind of schedule until I find a part-time job. My last summer job was an enrichment reading and writing session for a 10-year-old boy. The head of the center told me how much he had fun when I used the "camping set-up" for storytelling. I used mats and a big night lamp, and brought some food just for fun. Hehe =) I really enjoyed that session. But now, I have more time to rest for the holy week and I've been watching The Simpsons (their 18th season).

I was never really interested to Moe Szyslak, the famous bartender of Springfield. He's just this character who owns a bar, almost rude to everyone else..he's funny but I didn't know there's so much depth to his character until I watched the sixth episode from this season. When Homer forgot to go fishing with Moe for his birthday, Moe sent this letter:

Dear Pus Bag,
Birthdays never meant squat to me.
Then you offered to take me fishing,
And like a stumble bum chump,
I dared to hope.
But you shattered my dreams
Like a duff tall boy in a bar brawl,
And you jammed the jagged neck
Right up my heart's butt.
I guess I just wasn't meant to be happy, or handsome
Or anything really.


Poetry. Yes. Who would have thought of Moe as a writer? So Lisa helped Moe to "unleash" his poetic side. Lisa arranged Moe's written phrases that are just posted in his apartment, and even gave a title for the poem:

Howling like a Concrete Moon

My soul smells like a dead pigeon after three weeks,
I shut my window and go to sleep.
In my dream, I eat corn with my eyes.

Short but substantial. Of course, Homer does not want to be left out and shows his own "creation" as well.

I wrapped a rapping tomato.
That's right a rapping tomato.
I wrapped all day from April to May.
And guess what, it was me.

Heehee. =) I still find Homer adorable though. =) Haha..who would have thought that poetry can be part of the show. But I like the last part of the episode the most. Apparently, he wanted to be acknowledged alone in making the poem which made Lisa so upset. So Moe made a poem to apologize for his actions.

Ode to Liza

Pointy-headed mini-muse
More friend that I deserved,
You pulled me from the dirt,
And made me the beautiful flower that I am.
But some flowers can stab you in the back.
For which I should send you flowers,
Which I will, but they were closed.
You will be getting them tomorrow.

Just something to think about. =) Hehe..simple but profound. Hope that there could be more people like that =) Anyway, I really enjoy knowing Moe's character after watching that episode. Something to look forward to even more. =)

"Well, if I'm gonna fight, I might as well win."

Yehey! =)

I just submitted my last requirement for the semester. Woohoo!! Yehey!! =)
Time to look for work..hmm..i wonder where i could find centers accepting new tutors. OR! i could finally become a storyteller for adarna house this summer! if they would accept me though..hehe =) i'm still hoping my grades for the semester will be okay. Sana walang sabit..hehe =) if that happens..no more summer class and 13 units next semester!! can't wait =)

hehe..i love this song! only hoping that my voice can sound like that. i can imagine Tin (my orgmate) laughing at me. after submitting that last requirement, kung gaano kasaya sila kumanta sa video..ganun din ako kasaya! =)heehee =) ang saya pa ng song! =)

And I'm Telling You

This is the original version of "And I'm Telling You" by Jennifer Holiday. She's the first one to be casted as Effie White from the hit-broadway musical (turned into movie) "Dreamgirls". Haha. I've been reading about the movie and the broadway version. I've even watched the movie for..the nth time already. Well, enjoy the video. =) I'm sure a lot of you have seen Jennifer Hudson's version..so let's see how Jennifer Holiday earned her 1982 Tony Award for Best Lead Actress in a musical.